Friday, June 09, 2006

Chitchat with BYJ - Dream

Finally you came to my dream. From the first time I watched your drama 'Hotelier" till now, it's been almost 2 years. Oh, since then, how many times have I watched 'Hotelier'? More than the number of my fingers, hmmm, I can only count with one hand. The number above that is too big for me. How many times have I watched 'Winter Sonata'? 5+. How many times have I watched 'Have We Really Loved'? 5+. How many times have I watched 'Untold Scandal'? 5+. How many times have I watched 'April Snow'? 5+. How many times have I watched 'First Love'? 5+. 'Sea Wind', 'Love Greetings', '5 Steps to Separation', 'Barefoot Youth', 'Papa', 'Sunny Place of the Young', 'Goodbye My Love', 'Super Sunday', each of these I watched more than thrice. How many articles have I read about you in newspapers, from our fan sisters writings, fan fictions written by our sisters inspired from your works. How many VODs have I watched about your interviews, your NGs, your CFs, fans made art works. For such a person who occupies all of my mind and all of my spare time in daily life, whom I know almost inside out (well just the degree you want us to know), how come, I have always been wondering, how come, I have never dreamed about you.

Maybe I am not having enough sleep to allow dream to start. Nights after nights, after kids fall asleep, after finishing my work due, after spending time with my dear husband, it's BYJ hour till the bird start singing. Do you know when birds start chirping in the morning? 4am. The song of bird tells me - time to bed! There is work to do in the morning (it's already morning!).

It's been 1.5 years like this until today, to my surprise, you appeared in my dream. Manager Yang was with you too. He has to be with you always, whereever you go, right? How lucky I am to have two of you, the most desirable men in the whole wide world to visit my dream. bb and yokee must be jealous to death by now. They might have met you and Mgr. Yang in persons but I bet they've never got you guys in their dreams.

Well, you see, I was not prepared at all. You and manager Yang visited our house with all of my extended family there, my aunts and uncles are all your fans (that's my dream), my first, second, third aunts are all excited about you coming, but where was I? If I knew you would come, I could have prepared some delicous dishes or some presents or at least some skits, but what was I doing? Walking around plainly being excited. YJ ssi, Mgr. Yang and all who is reading this, Easy! Easy! Nothing dramatic happened at all in this dream. It was just too short.

Alarm woke me up. I was amazed, and satisfied. I know 99.9999999% that in this entire life, I may not be able to see you in person. But that's fine. I am totally happy that I am able to watch your works, read about you, share love among fan family, and even write to you. Your visit to my dream is such a nice bonus.

Do I sound like a sane person? Where did that clear-minded career woman go? To me every thing should have its meaning and everything has to have a purpose. What is it that I am experiencing? Is there a meaning and purpose for all these? YJ you tell me, what did you do to enchant me? I have a lot of guilty feelings being like this.

17 comments:

bb said...

H! yes, i'm jealous! i've never dreamt of any one of them!

actually... i used to think i don't dream at all. but later i read that everyone dreams, so i guess i just don't remember them.

sighs... wishing for the day i dream of them. but if given a choice, i'll like to have them in my dream one at a time. and no, no extended family, just me and the men :p

jaime said...

Hi heippieh,

How are you? It's the first time I add a comment in your blog. Great posts, I really enjoy you single out an issue about Yong Joon each time.

Wow, how lucky you are! Actually dream about him? You have to tell us what you ate or drank before you slept that night? Or maybe going to bed at 4 am can do the trick? Please share ....

Enjoy your blog and happy writing!

HeippieH said...

Dear bb, I know you would be jealouse, esp. for Mgr. Yang! Ha, it was a nice surprise for me to see him in my dream for I have never paid attention to this nice young man until you and Yokee fight about him. :-) I guess you have too little sleep time everyday and occupied all your awaken time with YJ that you don't have time for him in your sleep. I wish I could control dreamline so that I can schedule them to come individually. And I'll allocate enough time (is there such thing as enough?) for each of them for there is a whole lot we need to do.

HeippieH said...

Hi Dear Jaime,

I am so honored to see you here. Thank you so much for the nice words. Bow to the Toronto direction. I remember you live in Toronto. My brother used to work there, so I visited there for a few times. I used to work in Ottawa. I enjoy your writings so much, witty, humorous, eloquent. I thank HappieBB for linking your articles and comments for us. I am shameful for my English, but I have to write down what I think or else I'll have no peace.

As for what I did to have that dream? I guess it is harder than reviewing on what to do to have a baby girl. (I would like to have one!) I did not expect to have a dream like that, so I did not pay attention to what I ate or drank or wear or position of sleep or time to bed, or ... (did I do any exercise? I am trying to think...) The only thing I remembered was when I woke up and being amazed, I did think, "wait a minute, what could cause this dream to happen?" My conclusion was, I have been sleeping longer than before, going to bed before 2pm for a while, so dreams started to creep in. And lately I have been distracted by other things than BYJ, so I guess YJ and Mgr. Yang wanted to check on me, and you know, lately bb and people have been talking about this Mgr. Yang of YJ (or of bb), I think that has a huge influence on my dreams. So keep reading bb's ramblings.

And when is your blog going to charm us? We're all looking forward to it. Gather all your postings there, it is a nice way to organize them and convenient for us to read through. I got this idea from bb.

bb said...

am glad my own blog-experience has convinced you to start one.

actually one of the main reasons i started one was because of my sometimes not-so-pure thoughts and not-so-politically-correct postings. it feels kindda funny to be posting them on KOB or even on the quilt. i know cyberspace is cheap, but i still feel my nonsensical ramblings are just taking up space, wasting space. and some of the ramblings are really more private thoughts than anything else, hardly 'print-worthy' if you know what i mean.

so i thought a blog would be a good idea, since it's my own space, i can crowd it, pollute it, and treat it however i want. i could say my piece and vocalise my thoughts without having to worry about using 'other people's space'...

anyhow, yes, i do hope jaime would write more too. i too enjoy her writing very much.

marissa said...

happieh,

Thanks for sharing your wonderful writings with us. I'm glad you were able to see Yong Joon and Mngr. Yang in your dreams with your clan around never mind if it was short. Someone told me that dreams are reflections of our hidden desires so who knows it may be a reality soon.

HeippieH said...

Dear BB, everything you write is "print-worthy", it is worthy for it comes from a loving heart. it is worthy for it gives laughters to us. Just keep rambling, here there anywhere, I'll read along. Actually I think keeping them all in a blog is helpful to the readers and the writer yourself. It is really like a journal, the journal you would like to share.

In this BYJ journey, I have a whole lot to say to BYJ, I guess most of the time I am talking to myself, but I do have an urge to talk to him, if only he reads his KOB messages. But if he does not, I don't mind, I still like to share with BYJ what I think in the journey of knowing him, I just can't get the seriousness side of me. Everything has to have a meaning. Trying to make sense of this BYJ journey. I am thinking years later, I come back to this blog and read these ramblings of my thoughts on the BYJ journey, will I wonder how much dream and magic this BYJ fella can inspire?

Love.
h.

HeippieH said...

Dear marissa,

Thanks for dropping by and giving nice words and wishes. Being able to actually meet BYJ is a remote dream, far more remote than dreaming him coming into my dream. Have you met him before? Most of fans I am reading about have met him. How lucky you gals are! I've heard that he is addictive if you see him in person, but i am quite intend by just watching his works over and over again.

bb said...

hey i used to think it's impossible to meet him too.

but... i've already seen him 13 times. although most of these were fleeting or quick moments, or either one of us or both of us were squashed in the crowds :p

you're right. it's addictive. he's addictive.

jaime said...

hi heippieh,

sorry for responding so late. So you've been to TO, how do you like it? I heard Ottawa is a quiet and beautiful city, mostly government officials reside there.(does that equate to 'boring'?)

You are being too kind. I admire you and the other blogging sisters who have the encourage, tenacity, imagination and skills to create your blog. You're right, it's really a great repository of your precious journal entries. Yeah, bb and other veteran fans have really been nice to us. They see us as a 'somebody' and are always ready to give encouragement and help when we need them.

I can't help but feel that we are one big happy family! Just between you and me (and the other 20,000 people reading your blog), I think I have more things in common with the Bae sisters than with my real sisters. At least we all have the same distinguished taste in one MAN!

Enjoy your posts, happy blogging!
take care .... jaime

bb said...

veteran fan...?! me? wow!

HeippieH said...

Hi BB, I envy you! 13 times, that is like world record to me. Actually I could have been seeing him on his birthday 2005 in Tokyo International airport, he arrived and i departured with about 3 hours difference. but my dear husband would never be happy if i tell him i would like to have a chance to meet him. :p I am at peace that I make my husband happy and keep my admiration of BYJ in a corner of my heart

HeippieH said...

Dear Jaime,

I am young, bb is veteran, heehee...

It took me almost 2 years to start feeling easy to post anything, i feel sharing love will make me 7 fold happier. It's all for venting my feelings. I used to write journals everyday when I was in school and college. Since when I stopped? After having family I guess. Daily life became a routine. I love my husband and children. I have lots of joy with them. But BYJ and his fans stirred up special feelings in my heart. He touched a tender part of my heart which is unknown to me before. The more I learn about him, through those "veteran" fans, the larger that tender part expands. The more joyful my daily life is. I have always been thankful for falling into this state. 'coz I know I am happy.

I agree with you, the fact that we can come together and feel like being a family is because of our distinguished taste of one MAN, and it also tells that we are a distinguished crowd that shares the same values.

Thank you for your nice words and encouragement.

HeippieH said...

Dear Jaime,

I am young, bb is veteran, heehee...

It took me almost 2 years to start feeling easy to post anything, i feel sharing love will make me 7 fold happier. It's all for venting my feelings. I used to write journals everyday when I was in school and college. Since when I stopped? After having family I guess. Daily life became a routine. I love my husband and children. I have lots of joy with them. But BYJ and his fans stirred up special feelings in my heart. He touched a tender part of my heart which is unknown to me before. The more I learn about him, through those "veteran" fans, the larger that tender part expands. The more joyful my daily life is. I have always been thankful for falling into this state. 'coz I know I am happy.

I agree with you, the fact that we can come together and feel like being a family is because of our distinguished taste of one MAN, and it also tells that we are a distinguished crowd that shares the same values.

Thank you for your nice words and encouragement.

bb said...

actually, it took me more than a year before i started surfacing online too... :)

jaime said...

Dear H,

I just like to let you know that I have written a response to your question with regards to ordering Image VOl I from Yesasia and Broasia. It is imbedded in the comments section in bb's blog -
"jaime, please come in" just in case you miss it. Please let me know if you have any question. Good luck!

take care .... jaime

HeippieH said...

Dear jaime,

I saw it. Thank you so much. Can I write you emails? Can you write to me on heippieh@gmail.com so that I can reply to you? I have a favor to ask. :-)